Haha... Today rain. Today went to newbie house to play cards. At first win... Win about 30-40 then in the end lose back. Lose 20 dollars in the end. Nvm i had fun.

Next wed my ex wanna come and visit me bai nian. I used to think that she had no feelings for me. Ever, but i was wrong. She once upon a time did. I forgot her for like 1 year. Cause i told myself she had no feelings for me. But During december that time, she tell me got. And a lot of stupid things. I feel damn sian. Recently i always wake up with tears in my eyes. I thought i had forgotten. But i can not forget. But i can not be with her also. We are over.

How? I dun think i can be a normal friend. I feel so confused and troubled. I wish someone would just fill her place in my heart. I wish i can really forget her, and forget all the good times. Everyone tell me... Its time to put it aside, she is not that good also. But, it is very hard. I try very hard. i... sometimes feel i am very weak too.

(0) So Waddaya Think! 9:40:00 AM